Be Nice

As a teacher I always teach my class about being nice, respectful, and be understanding. Of course there is way more that I teach in the character department but the simple ones I mentioned really need to be applied to social media. A friend of mine said she needs a break from social media. I get it, it can be brutal out there! Many people need a time out!! We need to focus on what can we do to make our world a better place. That can come in the form of respecting someone’s opinion especially if it differs from your own. I get now why the Bible says be slow to anger, we need to listen to people and see where they are coming from. Does anyone seriously think that if they shove their opinions down someone’s throat in a mean way that it will get that other person to open their minds or consider their view? So just be nice!

 

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Good Morning :)

I have finally applied for my diploma (who would have thought after graduating I would have to apply and pay $150) and I am registered to take the professional knowledge state test Feb 10. Pray for me, send positive vibes, whatever you do I need all the positivity I can get! I have the study guide and they recommend studying two hours a day. That is totally do able. I love teaching I really do but I can’t help that I have other thoughts swarming my head. What thoughts you ask? Thoughts of giving young children holistic teaching and learning so they have a solid foundation when they enter kindergarten. I have been in the preschool environment for 14 years so maybe it is habit? But I have always wanted to have a house with a decent amount of land so I can have an addition on my house or a preschool, a garden, small farm, and a wonderful place for the children to play. I am very eclectic in my teaching philosophies. I love the different theories because they can work together and provide the best environment for a child to learn and grow. I have always loved Howard Gardner and Abraham Maslow’s theories. I think our education system needs to take a step back and see what we have done to the classrooms and see where we can change it for the better.

The things learned in preschool/prek will help a child when they are in elementary school. For example, if a teacher has a sorting activity it helps the child learn how to classify objects. That is something that is needed as they are in school. I hear a lot of teacher say how the fine motor skills in their students are very poor. In preschool the children should be doing many activities that strengthen the fine motor skills. The reason I want a preschool addition on my house is because it creates a homey feel, the land is important for the children to learn, explore, and discover. They need to be out in nature! If there are animals around they can learn so much (they would not be allowed by them without supervision). Think of all the great things they would learn by planting food and flower gardens! Then to take the food and make yummy food with it or make beautiful flowers arrangements in the school.

This is my struggle. I am not financially ready to take on such endeavors but I’ve had that dream in my head and heart for a long time.

I joined Forks Over Knives meal planner and I am so happy I did because it really helps me. I made a menu for the whole month for myself and the rest of the family. I found a recipe on SkinnyTaste.com quinoa enchilada casserole OMG ya’ll it was so good!! I over course add to it because I just like to put more flavor in my food but it made a lot of food for me. I had it for lunch the next day and I still have plenty. I am hoping my family will come on board with this healthy lifestyle.

Man.
Because he sacrifices his health in order to make money.
Then he sacrifices money to recuperate his health.
And then he is so anxious about the future that he does not enjoy the present;
the result being that he does not live in the present or the future;
he lives as if he is never going to die, and then dies having never really lived.

– The 14th Dalai Lama

Do you make new year resolutions? Do you reflect on the year and figure out how to do better, be better, and what you are grateful for? I saw the above quote and I just sat there and thought about it. I have been all about bettering my health and wellness as well as making a better life for me and my family. It also made me think of a conversation I had recently with my oldest daughter. She has gained weight and her self esteem is pretty low.  There is a young man that she has been talking to online for awhile now and she is chicken to meet him (she is not social like her mama that is for sure). She is even more afraid to meet him after the weight gain. I told her to stop putting her life on hold she is going to be 28 years old and she needs to live and have fun now. I warned her to be careful or she will look back on her 20s and regret not living her life.

One good thing is she is in school so that will contribute to a goal she has. When I ask her what are some things she enjoys to do, she said she doesn’t even know anymore. She feels like the things she enjoyed doing years ago she doesn’t now. I told her that is the fun of life interests change and that is ok. I asked her what does she want out of life? what does she want to learn? where does she want to go? I found some journal prompts on Pinterest so I emailed them to her and told her to answer the questions and go from there.

The one thing I have been tired of saying is we can’t afford to do…….

Now that I am not in school anymore I feel like I can get back to living life and I need to figure out what I want to learn next. Lots of thinking and journaling to do!

ta ta my friends

Crazy week

So my poor cat Monster broke his leg Wednesday. He went into my bedroom or bathroom and a few minutes later he came out to me and I noticed he was limping. When I looked closer at his rear left leg it was floppy. I called my vet and they couldn’t get him in until 5pm. The more I watched Monster the more I knew I couldn’t make him wait that long to be seen. I had my son help me get the carrier and Monster in it, we then picked my mom up and headed to the emergency animal hospital. We were there for 5 hours there was like 3 critical patients before us. The x-rays showed Monster broke his femur and it was very close to the hip bones. I contacted my vet and sent over the x-rays so the orthopedic dr could look it over. The receptionist called back saying the dr isn’t comfortable with operating on Monster since he is 18 and thinks a specialist is the best route to go. So we went to the specialist yesterday and they had Monster in surgery by 11:30. They did have to amputate the leg because of the risk of problems and the amount of repair it would take. The dr was saying that the bone could have cancer or an infection which would mean amputating anyway. Monster did very well during surgery and he is finally home. I picked him up at 8:30 this morning. I have to keep him in a large carrier so he can rest and heal. They don’t want him really doing anything for the next 2 weeks. I will have to clean the carrier out so I will have my hubby hold Monster while I do that. As long as Monster just walks around in my bedroom without trying to jump on anything that would be ok too.

I have always been an animal lover and had to everything I could to make life better for him. I am so thankful that he is so healthy. I didn’t get the bone biopsied but the dr thinks it was an infection and gave him an antibiotic. Needless to say I am relieved he is doing so well but there is a lot of work in his care. I have to give him cold compresses three times a day then in a few days switch to warm compresses, cleaning the litter box after each use while he is in the carrier, clean the bedding each day, etc etc. The animal hospital forgot to give us the e collar that Monster is supposed to have on so he can’t mess with the incision. I was not about to drive one way 30 minutes so we just went to our vet and got him one. I will put it on at night and when we are not home. So far he doesn’t even mess act like he knows he has an incision.

Since I have been keeping a food journal and any affects I am really starting to see what I am going to have to eliminate from my diet. Dairy, gluten, and corn are the biggest ones so far. I made myself healthy nachos for lunch and I have been fatigued since I finished them. UGH….so no tortilla chips or dairy cheese.

Well time for me to get dinner started. ta ta for now

 

Merry Christmas

I am officially finished with school!!! I am done with classes, student teaching, and all that fun stuff, I have graduated. I am so proud of myself. Five years ago I decided to go to school and get my degree. It was a goal that challenged me and stretched me to my capacity at times but I did it!!! When I was doing my student teaching I struggled a bit with matching the standards and learning goal. I see all these cute writing activities on Pinterest but I had to really think about what is the learning goal and does it match the standards. My mentor teacher and field supervisor wanted me to do more lesson planning so I could get the practice in. There was one lesson that I was struggling with the anticipatory set. Have you ever been so tired and stressed that something so simple escapes your mind? That was me. I had asked my mentor teacher for some help and instead of being supportive and helpful like she said she would be, she tells me I will have to struggle through it. I laughed and told her I was so tired and stressed it was taking me longer to “get it”. She said we all get stressed and I cut her off. I am 46 years old with 3 children, 2 marriages under my belt (the second much better but still), sicknesses, mental illness, suicide attempts, etc I have struggled through plenty!!! What I do need is that mentor that is supportive and gives tips on what worked for her when she was struggling. She then asked me what would I do if she wasn’t there? I told her honestly I would ask my other teacher friend. I learn better by talking things out, shown and told examples, and seeing it done.

That was disappointing. I understand this was her first time mentoring a student teacher and I asked her would she say such a thing to a student if they weren’t understanding something? If she does then that is terrible because that is not how it should be done!

We did get through it and it was awesome that we both learned new things from each other. I have been in preschool for 14 years so I did bring some good ideas to the classroom. Just because someone has been teaching for a long time doesn’t mean something can’t inspire you to try new things. When my mentor and I talked about the class and how we could help certain students it was so much fun because we love the kids. The principal wants my resume so I have to get that updated.

A few days before I was done with student teaching my stomach was cramping, bloating, and just feeling awful. Each day everything got worse. On my last day of ST (student teaching) I went to the urgent care. They noticed I had sugar in my urine and then tested my blood sugars 196….holy shit! So they send me to the ER because I need imaging done. I get to the ER and they take blood, do a CT scan on me. I have diverticulitis and my sugars went up to 208. WHAAAAAT? I hadn’t eaten since 12:15 and it was 6:00. They put me on cipro and flagyl. What is going on with me I have never been so sick in my life. Two days after I was on the meds I started with a fever and feeling like death. The next day I vomited so I stopped the meds. I started doing better each day I was off and then bam…..ladies you know what can happen when on high doses of antibiotics…..So probiotics, juices, essential oils, and hot showers.

This was not how I planned to spend my 2 weeks off. However, I am very thankful that this happened now then even two weeks ago because it would have messed up my ST. For the past 3 days I have been getting my house cleaned, organized, and trying to put pictures up. It’s sad that we’ve been in the house over a year and I don’t have pictures up! I have made it my mission to get pictures up, curtains, rugs, and make my home feel homey! The hubby and I purchased a few rugs so it isn’t so cold on feet and paws. I need to see how I can incorporate some healing color in the house!

I am also planning on going to this place that has infrared saunas that I can do some sessions and get my body detoxing. I figured I would take January to get my body cleansed and study for my state test. Juices, smoothies, healthy meals, walking in nature, sitting in the sun, drinking waters and teas, and meditation.

My girls are out of state visiting their dad’s side of the family. I am so happy my youngest daughter is finally talking to her dad again. When she got to her dad’s she started texting me about her anxiety. She doesn’t have any medication and I forgot to give her the essential oils I have blended for her. Her sleep patterns have been really off and I figured it was because she was thinking about her little vacation. I’m happy her sister is with her but she too lately has been in a depression. The oldest has always dealt with depression but she won’t go to therapy. It is so hard to have children that deal with mental illness! When things have been crazy at the house with work and school I had to rely on my husband and son for help. The girls could have helped but instead they stayed in their bedrooms. It’s one thing to deal with depression but it’s another thing to have a shitty attitude that you don’t want to help your own mother when she needs it! Especially being  a grown adult living at home for free and being supported. The oldest just started the vet tech program. She graduated from the assistant program and was off for 6 weeks. She hasn’t worked since August and throws a fit if she is asked to help clean the kitchen.

Has anyone watched the documentary 32Pills? OMG that was such a touching movie! It hit home in so many ways. When the therapist told Hope that a person with borderline never feels fulfilled and that they spend a lifetime trying to get fulfilled that broke my heart because I now this is true for my youngest daughter. The therapist also mentioned medication alone doesn’t help bpd, going to therapy is important. I am hoping YD (youngest daughter) will keep her appointment for this new therapist. She can get better but she has to go in order for that to happen.

Merry Christmas and I hope you are blessed today!!

 

Peace, Love, and Misuderstanding

I should be cleaning, shopping, making a menu, or even planning lessons for the next three weeks, but I’m not. I woke up to a very gray sky and not feeling too well. So I put in the movie Peace, Love, and Misunderstanding. I love that movie! My mom hates that Jane Fonda is in it because of what she did to the POWs many years ago. I totally get it but I still love the movie, including Jane’s character (the mom Grace). I have this book (the 52 Lists Project) that asks to list characters in movies, books, plays, etc and to find a common personality trait between the favorite characters. The home that the mom lives on is on beautiful land that has a large pond and a lot of wild animals as well as her chickens. I love her spirit and how she tries to be fun, compassionate, artistic, spiritual, and loving.  There is a part where it is a full moon and a bunch of ladies get together at Grace’s house. They have a large bon fire going, they are dancing, playing instruments, and even howling at the moon. The freedom and the connection I admire greatly. Someday I want to turn my backyard into a beautiful garden oasis. I would love to have a medicine wheel included along with lush gardens of food. Being around nature has alway recharged me and this would be a bonus to have in my backyard!

Is it bad that I don’t want to stay in this home for too much longer? We haven’t even lived here a year. I love my home and I am thankful for it but I just know there is something else out there for us. I’ve had visions of a land where I can have my home, animals, and a preschool. Now I have to do the work to make those come true. I’ve got the education down, just need the house with land so I can create the rest. I’m sure that will entail me working for a few years at a school. I am totally open for wherever I need to do to get on that path.

I feel a headache coming on so I need to take a nap. Ta ta for now….be blessed my friends!

 

Love

I was listening to the Black Eyed Peas redone Where is the Love. There is a part in there that DJ Khaled says Love is the Key, Love is the Answer, Love is the Solution, Love is Powerful. Yes it is!! How do we get more of it, show more of it, give more of it? It starts with each of us. I was shown a video about Quincy Blakely and I was shocked, outraged, and angry that this man has been treated in such a manner. It is easy to say he should have just listened to the police officer but watching that video I was confused as to what the right thing to do was because that officer was out of line and wrong. We need changes in the world!! Why is this man still in jail? There is no way he should be, it seems to me they are punishing him for not listening to the officer. The verdict about Philando Castile shocked me but his mom was given money. I guess that is suppose to make it ok but the officer walks free? It is situations like this that make me wonder how can we infuse more love into the world? How can we get to a better place? Look at all the terrorist attacks, how do we overcome that? I hate war, yet don’t we have to protect our own country or is this what we have been taught to think?

We need more love in our schools, in our barns, in our homes. Animals need to be treated better also. I am a huge fan of the Gentle Barn, they have rescue barns in California, Tennessee, and Missouri. They have been a big reason why I have decided to not eat meat or use dairy. When you really see how these animals are treated how can we not care? How can this be ok?

More prayer, more positive energy, more action, more visualizing is a few ways to start.

I was talking with my assistant today about our classroom. We have 4-5 years olds and it is easy to have expectations that are too high. At that age they still need to be taught what their emotions are and how to handle them. Our conversation was really good and positive. We both agreed we want to set the tone in the classroom to be calm and encouraging. I had one little boy today that was mad he didn’t get his way so he through a fit. I asked him if throwing a fit is going to make it better? He said no. I asked him to please take a few deep breaths and calm down so we could talk. He immediately took some breaths and I asked him what was wrong that he through a fit. He was mad a friend took his spot in line. He found some garbage on the floor and wanted to throw it away. I told him that was very kind of him to make sure our classroom was clean. I turned to the friend and explained to her why he left the line and would she please let him have his place in line again? She said yes. I turned to the little boy and told him when he went back to the line that is what he needed to say to his friend. I explained that when he threw the fit his friend didn’t know what he was saying or why, that is why it is important to be calm. If I would have just told him to stop throwing a fit and get to the back of the line I would have missed a great opportunity to teach him how to handle his frustration and how to problem solve the situation. I always tell my class they can come to myself or the other teacher for help. I swear to you, how we react and how we talk it all contributes to how our classroom is going to respond. My assistant and I want to infuse even more love in our room.

I was told by a parent today that she and her husband have separated. I immediately know what to do. I have been through this with my biological parents as well as many classroom children. I told mom I would make sure her daughter got extra hugs and love. I am told by at least 8 children everyday multiple times a day “I love you Ms. D”. I always tell them I love them too. When my assistant first started in my classroom she was so happy to see how the children were and I quickly responded with love. She said I have my rules and am quick to correct the not so good behavior but it is with love always. So we continue to teach and guide so that way these children can become adults with love, problem solving skills, good vocabulary, and how to work as a team.

When I think of my class I have hope for the future.

Lets’ be better friends, let’s put more love in the world!!!