Crazy week

So my poor cat Monster broke his leg Wednesday. He went into my bedroom or bathroom and a few minutes later he came out to me and I noticed he was limping. When I looked closer at his rear left leg it was floppy. I called my vet and they couldn’t get him in until 5pm. The more I watched Monster the more I knew I couldn’t make him wait that long to be seen. I had my son help me get the carrier and Monster in it, we then picked my mom up and headed to the emergency animal hospital. We were there for 5 hours there was like 3 critical patients before us. The x-rays showed Monster broke his femur and it was very close to the hip bones. I contacted my vet and sent over the x-rays so the orthopedic dr could look it over. The receptionist called back saying the dr isn’t comfortable with operating on Monster since he is 18 and thinks a specialist is the best route to go. So we went to the specialist yesterday and they had Monster in surgery by 11:30. They did have to amputate the leg because of the risk of problems and the amount of repair it would take. The dr was saying that the bone could have cancer or an infection which would mean amputating anyway. Monster did very well during surgery and he is finally home. I picked him up at 8:30 this morning. I have to keep him in a large carrier so he can rest and heal. They don’t want him really doing anything for the next 2 weeks. I will have to clean the carrier out so I will have my hubby hold Monster while I do that. As long as Monster just walks around in my bedroom without trying to jump on anything that would be ok too.

I have always been an animal lover and had to everything I could to make life better for him. I am so thankful that he is so healthy. I didn’t get the bone biopsied but the dr thinks it was an infection and gave him an antibiotic. Needless to say I am relieved he is doing so well but there is a lot of work in his care. I have to give him cold compresses three times a day then in a few days switch to warm compresses, cleaning the litter box after each use while he is in the carrier, clean the bedding each day, etc etc. The animal hospital forgot to give us the e collar that Monster is supposed to have on so he can’t mess with the incision. I was not about to drive one way 30 minutes so we just went to our vet and got him one. I will put it on at night and when we are not home. So far he doesn’t even mess act like he knows he has an incision.

Since I have been keeping a food journal and any affects I am really starting to see what I am going to have to eliminate from my diet. Dairy, gluten, and corn are the biggest ones so far. I made myself healthy nachos for lunch and I have been fatigued since I finished them. UGH….so no tortilla chips or dairy cheese.

Well time for me to get dinner started. ta ta for now

 

Advertisements

Merry Christmas

I am officially finished with school!!! I am done with classes, student teaching, and all that fun stuff, I have graduated. I am so proud of myself. Five years ago I decided to go to school and get my degree. It was a goal that challenged me and stretched me to my capacity at times but I did it!!! When I was doing my student teaching I struggled a bit with matching the standards and learning goal. I see all these cute writing activities on Pinterest but I had to really think about what is the learning goal and does it match the standards. My mentor teacher and field supervisor wanted me to do more lesson planning so I could get the practice in. There was one lesson that I was struggling with the anticipatory set. Have you ever been so tired and stressed that something so simple escapes your mind? That was me. I had asked my mentor teacher for some help and instead of being supportive and helpful like she said she would be, she tells me I will have to struggle through it. I laughed and told her I was so tired and stressed it was taking me longer to “get it”. She said we all get stressed and I cut her off. I am 46 years old with 3 children, 2 marriages under my belt (the second much better but still), sicknesses, mental illness, suicide attempts, etc I have struggled through plenty!!! What I do need is that mentor that is supportive and gives tips on what worked for her when she was struggling. She then asked me what would I do if she wasn’t there? I told her honestly I would ask my other teacher friend. I learn better by talking things out, shown and told examples, and seeing it done.

That was disappointing. I understand this was her first time mentoring a student teacher and I asked her would she say such a thing to a student if they weren’t understanding something? If she does then that is terrible because that is not how it should be done!

We did get through it and it was awesome that we both learned new things from each other. I have been in preschool for 14 years so I did bring some good ideas to the classroom. Just because someone has been teaching for a long time doesn’t mean something can’t inspire you to try new things. When my mentor and I talked about the class and how we could help certain students it was so much fun because we love the kids. The principal wants my resume so I have to get that updated.

A few days before I was done with student teaching my stomach was cramping, bloating, and just feeling awful. Each day everything got worse. On my last day of ST (student teaching) I went to the urgent care. They noticed I had sugar in my urine and then tested my blood sugars 196….holy shit! So they send me to the ER because I need imaging done. I get to the ER and they take blood, do a CT scan on me. I have diverticulitis and my sugars went up to 208. WHAAAAAT? I hadn’t eaten since 12:15 and it was 6:00. They put me on cipro and flagyl. What is going on with me I have never been so sick in my life. Two days after I was on the meds I started with a fever and feeling like death. The next day I vomited so I stopped the meds. I started doing better each day I was off and then bam…..ladies you know what can happen when on high doses of antibiotics…..So probiotics, juices, essential oils, and hot showers.

This was not how I planned to spend my 2 weeks off. However, I am very thankful that this happened now then even two weeks ago because it would have messed up my ST. For the past 3 days I have been getting my house cleaned, organized, and trying to put pictures up. It’s sad that we’ve been in the house over a year and I don’t have pictures up! I have made it my mission to get pictures up, curtains, rugs, and make my home feel homey! The hubby and I purchased a few rugs so it isn’t so cold on feet and paws. I need to see how I can incorporate some healing color in the house!

I am also planning on going to this place that has infrared saunas that I can do some sessions and get my body detoxing. I figured I would take January to get my body cleansed and study for my state test. Juices, smoothies, healthy meals, walking in nature, sitting in the sun, drinking waters and teas, and meditation.

My girls are out of state visiting their dad’s side of the family. I am so happy my youngest daughter is finally talking to her dad again. When she got to her dad’s she started texting me about her anxiety. She doesn’t have any medication and I forgot to give her the essential oils I have blended for her. Her sleep patterns have been really off and I figured it was because she was thinking about her little vacation. I’m happy her sister is with her but she too lately has been in a depression. The oldest has always dealt with depression but she won’t go to therapy. It is so hard to have children that deal with mental illness! When things have been crazy at the house with work and school I had to rely on my husband and son for help. The girls could have helped but instead they stayed in their bedrooms. It’s one thing to deal with depression but it’s another thing to have a shitty attitude that you don’t want to help your own mother when she needs it! Especially being  a grown adult living at home for free and being supported. The oldest just started the vet tech program. She graduated from the assistant program and was off for 6 weeks. She hasn’t worked since August and throws a fit if she is asked to help clean the kitchen.

Has anyone watched the documentary 32Pills? OMG that was such a touching movie! It hit home in so many ways. When the therapist told Hope that a person with borderline never feels fulfilled and that they spend a lifetime trying to get fulfilled that broke my heart because I now this is true for my youngest daughter. The therapist also mentioned medication alone doesn’t help bpd, going to therapy is important. I am hoping YD (youngest daughter) will keep her appointment for this new therapist. She can get better but she has to go in order for that to happen.

Merry Christmas and I hope you are blessed today!!