Being born and raised in the Midwest I am fully aware that the weather is a fickle heifer! I know we need the rain and welcome it but why the gray cold days? Can’t it be warmer? It totally wreaks havoc on my thyroid. Who would think gray and cold makes such a big difference but let me tell you it does!!! My body aches to the bone, I am not kidding my bones freaking hurt. I have my hubby gently rub my back to get the tightness out of it and it really helps. Oh yes let me rant about this thyroid….
I started exercising more a month ago I was doing really well making sure I wasn’t over doing it for too long or too rough of a workout. I would do the treadmill, ride the bike, and do other exercises. My middle daughter has been struggling with depression and some other issues, which stressed me out big time. One Friday, I believe it was 3 weeks ago I over did it and guess what I have not been able to get back on the exercise wagon. I am however making sure I take my supplements, eat right, and get plenty of sleep. Let’s not forget I still have to work and have school in all the crazy madness I have been going through since March. As much as I am disappointed with this set back I am impressed how much faster my body is bouncing back. Thyroid and adrenal issues are such a pain in my damn ass! I shipped my daughter to Arizona to get some help and stay with my mom.
One good thing that has come out of this is for the first time in 12 years, my ex and I have been communicating in a positive manner. He has become my daughter’s latest victim of who she is not talking to. I honestly believe now that she is over 18 she feels she has the freedom to take all her anger from the past and be totally pissed at her dad. I get it, I understand, but she has to work through it. The reason she initially stopped talking to her dad was wrong. I have to tread lightly because I know it is important for her to work through her issues, she has a right to be heard, buuuuuuuut at the same time she was wrong with quite a few things. When I explained what I felt she had done wrong she tried to tell me not to stick up for him because he would never do that for me. In fact when she wasn’t speaking to me for a few months he seemed happy about it. So once again I had to tell her I do NOT care what he thinks of me, what he does, etc I will do the right thing even if that means I have stick up for him. Her reasons for being upset with him are valid but he has a right to know what they are and for both of them to work them out. My daughter is not strong enough just yet to take that step, she needs therapy to help her with her depression, way of thinking, and other things.
I have been gathering a bunch of information up for my daughter so she can see the importance of eating healthy, getting exercise, having her hormones tested, and other things to help her get through this depression. Luckily I have two copies of Dr. Weil’s Spontaneous Happiness. It is an excellent read with a lot of great information for her to be proactive in her life.
I could tell my cortisol levels were raising during this whole crazy ordeal :(. Exercising was helping it and I have to get back to it. I need to lose weight, I need to get healthier, I need to break out of this body I feel trapped in, I need to be a better role model for my children, I need an exercise buddy!
School is my saving grace right about now. I love when I am reading the many chapters and I already know a lot of the information but yet am learning a ton. I find myself getting confirmation more and more I am on the right career path. I still don’t know what direction to take with this career. Do I become a teacher? Do I own a preschool? Do I become a Director of a center? After I am done with getting my bachelor degree I want my masters but I also want to get certified in the Orton-Gillingham reading curriculum. I believe all children should be taught with this curriculum since it will help children whether they have dyslexia, a reading disability, or not. When I was at my son’s IEP meeting the school psychologist thinks I should be a reading specialist. We will see…. I am totally open to the direction my career goes into, all I know is I want to work with children.
I have become friends with a kindergarten teacher that I have done quite a few days of observing in her room. She has helped me with a final and giving me great information about classroom management. In fact all the teachers at this particular elementary school are fabulous teachers! They really do love their students and want nothing but success for them.
This weekend we are going to the Dells for my father in laws 60th birthday. It has been forever since I have been up there so this will be a great mini vacation. Then the beginning of June we are going to Louisiana, we are going to see the UFC fights mainly for Ben Rothwell (gotta cheer our friend on). I am hoping to get some awesome sight seeing in. I am really excited to be doing on vacation and being more active. LOVE IT 🙂
Time to get things going around here so I better sign off for now. Be Blessed my friends!